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.Horrible news
Today we found Grandma Mary dead in her bathtub, we don't know yet what caused her death, might had been a fall or a storke. I checked on her the day before and talked to her.. Yesterday she might had died, we don't know for sure.. I know that I heard her moving above us and that she seemed to be alive then, Dan went up and delievered some cat food, but since it was some what late, he thought she was sleeping. We went to give her cat her medicine at 7pm... She didn't answer the door, Dan went in and looked for her and knocked loudly on the bathroom door, she didn't answer. He went in and found her in the bathtub.. She wasn't breathing. We called 911 but they couldn't do anything she had been dead for a awhile.
I feel horrible that she was dead and we didn't know. I feel like it is my fault for not constantly checking in on her thourgh out the day. I regret not telling her that I loved her and that she was like my grandmother. She also didn't know I was pregnant. I miss her. I had to go into her apartment and get the cat and the cat stuff, I coudn't even walk past the bathroom.. I broke down into tears getting the cat stuff.
Her cat is crying for her and it is breaking my heart.. I should had been there.. And I wasn't. I just want to see her one last time... But I can't. I'd give anything just for one conversatoin with her again. She was like my grandmother.. I never really had on ebefore.. And that eant so much to me.
I don't think I can go back into her apartment again. The poor cat is standing in our bathroom just crying.. The three floors have identical layouts.. I'm so sorry I let this happen to her. She shouldn't have had laid there for so long or died alone.. I think its my fault.
If you have any thoughts or anything, pleas epost them.. I don't have many actual people to lean on anymore.
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