Eric and Jessica- the road to baby!
Eric and I got married August 23, 2008. We had talked a few months prior to that about having a baby. Having MANY babies. We are so excited to start this journey but a little nervous at the same time.
Eric and I want a baby now!! I am a very impatient person and I know that this is a very patient process! lol. Anyways we immediately started with our wedding night not using anything. We have been together for 3 1/2 years and all he has done is pulled out. We have not used any protection what so ever besides that. Which we are kind of lucky that we did not get pregnant.
Unfourtunately though that leads me to be a little more nervous. When I was 14 I went to the gyno for the first time. And at that appointment because I had had so many problems with cysts and things and family history with OV Cancer and other things. They told my mother that they were not sure if I would ever be able to have kids. At that point I remember being very upset. Because ever since I was little all I have ever wanted to be was a mom. So having it be so long with very little protection and not conceiving makes me a little nervous.
Also thanks to Jamie I have been researching and looking into the best things to do, info, things like that since Eric and I are ready to concieve. Well I was doing a couple ovulation tests to see what it said and 2 out of the 3 stated that because my cycles were so long (generally 32-46 days) that there is a possibility that I could not be ovulating! So at that point I cried! I am so nervous and worried that I will not be able to and it will be extremely devastating.
I know I know I always think the worst! But when this is all you have ever wanted and it means sooooo much it hurts!
I know we have only been trying for a week, but I am not sure whether I should go to the doctor and just be like ok.....can I have kids or not. Just so it calms my nerves down.
I talked to Eric about all of my concerns, and we made a deal that if we don't concieve by the time we come back from our honeymoon....(which we are not going until the end of October) that we can go to the doctor and just try to relieve some of the stress. I don't know if they will do anything but we will see!
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