I needed to post these somewhere. Anywhere really. I've been depressed lately, and have had no motivation to do anything in the house. I know I have to get things done with my baby on the way. I won't invite people over because I'm ashamed. I know I only have a few more months before my little bean gets here. Still, this room goes untouched.
I actually got some motivation a few days ago and cleaned out 3 bags full of clothes and 2 of trash. I've been "working" on this since I got pregnant. After my baby died I let everything go. Myself included. I gained almost 100lbs, and quit caring.
My room is so small, I'm really not sure how we'll all fit, but where the large pile of clothing is I plan on putting in the crib. The entertainment center is being traded for a big dresser if I can find one. Just looking at this makes me even more depressed. I didn't realize how bad it looked until after I saw the pictures. I get up in the morning and plan on starting. By the time I've finished breakfast and checked email I'm so tired and depressed I go back to bed.
I'm hoping that if I post pictures of it now, and as I get motivation to continue cleaning that seeing the improvement will help me. I'm also hoping the humiliation of you all seeing it will help me get motivated.
Please don't be too hard on me. I'm seriously considering bagging up everything except what's clean and I wear a lot and donating it to a charity. Throwing out everything and starting fresh.
I've tried everything for motivation. Playing music, drinking Pepsi (for caffeine and an energy burst), and even withholding things from myself. Nothing so far has helped. Does anyone have suggestions for motivation?
